It is strange... when people claim they have no attachments in their life and proudly say that they can live without almost anything. But the actual test comes when we have to stay without that "most wanted", when it goes out of our hands even before we realize what’s happening. Especially when it goes out of our hands by some authoritative force!!! Life takes an unannounced twist completely! We might try keeping our cool and try with all our efforts to keep up the false impression to others, that there is absolutely no tension caused inside us due to the significant absence of that thing. But later when we ask ourselves, we do get this deep sick feeling inside us that no matter how hard we try to distract ourself, we still look for that thing and feel the uncomfortable absence of that object. We even realize that not even a decimal amount of what we used to claim is true. Continuing in the same lines, we start looking at life as long term imprisonment, and get panicky and worried just by wondering how life can even be possible, without our beloved article! For the first few days of this imprisonment, you can’t think about anything else apart from how life was actually heaven and we took it for granted when we had the liberty to enjoy our article to our fullest! Still, as days goes by, we start feeling how trivial our “most wanted” article is. Life surely has taken a twist. Other things seem more interesting than our tiny article which was our main source of amusement once upon a time! We laugh at how silly the desperation towards our article was! We go off into our boasting mood again and then start telling, how we actually are living without our attachment and get back to our words. As days advances, we even forget that we happened to own something which we valued the most and then realize that it was a mere addiction and not sentimental attachment! Confused becomes the state of our minds when it is time to get back our 'most wanted’ possession from its custody! Everything seems so new and outside when it finally reaches our hands from its term of imprisonment! We get back to treasuring our article hoping not to get it as an addiction but you know what is likely to happen over the days ....and then we are back to strangeness…..!!
To relate it on a personal experience, this is exactly what I experienced when my cell phone got confiscated in school for a week.
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- Nadig
- Nadig
